So close!

I woke up yesterday at 2:30am having contractions. They were pretty strong, but they were 20 minutes apart. I was waiting for a call from my midwife giving me the green light to try some castor oil to get things going. She finally called around 7:30am and gave me the thumbs up. None of her other clients were doing anything. So by 8:00am I drank my castor oil smoothie. From there, I start to have some contractions that grew closer together (2-3 minutes apart lasting 1 minute). Finally some progress. By 1:15pm the loose stools kicked in until 3:30pm. By this time I was having some very strong contractions and hoping they were getting the job done. By 4:00pm, I was soo tired and just wanted to take a nap. I finally gave in and took a nap, but then woke up to my contractions being gone. I was very disappointed. I had really hoped that the castor oil would get this baby out. I am going to try again either tomorrow or Monday depending on how things go from here. My midwife will let me know if we are in the clear again.

Where did October go?

Wow, I couldn't sleep so I got out of bed at midnight and realized it is November 1st already. October seems to have just flown by. I am really hoping that November does the same. I have only 6 weeks left until my due date, but I have my babies early, so technicaly I could have as little as two weeks left. They won't stop me from delivering after 36 weeks. I get a little nervous thinking that this baby could be here really soon. I have everything ready, it is just hard to believe we will be having a boy. I am a bit nervous about how the first few diaper changes are going to go after having five girls!!! Please pray for me :)

Sympathy Pains

I went to see my midwife today. I ended up being a half an hour early. As I sat in the waiting area of the birthing center, I could hear a mother giving birth in a room of the birthing center. One of the ladies that works there came out and told me that my midwife would be out soon. As I sat there waiting, I found myself remembering how it was when I gave birth to my first. I said many of the same things that this mama was saying. Things like....."I can't do this", "Cut me open and take the baby out", and "It hurts too bad". I felt her pain. I started to contract after a few minutes of hearing her labor.

Soon, my midwife came out and took my blood pressure. She said it was high and asked if listening to the other mama was stressing me out. I said "No, my heart just goes out to her because I've been there before". It is amazing how our bodies can react to what others are going through. The rest of my appt. was rushed so that my midwife could get back to deliver the mama's baby.

I pray that the mama and baby have a speedy recovery.

Waiting: Part 2

Well, I went in for my second ultra sound the other day and I was very excited to learn that the placenta has moved away from the cervix. It is now 4-5 cm from the opening. Yay!! That means I can have a "normal" delivery.

I also found out today that the choroid plexus cyst that was on the babies brain, is now gone and the brain looks normal. I am very thankful for that.

The right kidney is still bigger than the left, but I am prayerful that that also will resolve before birth. Even if it does not, it seems to be a minor issue that can be easily fixed at a later time.

So overall, I am very blessed and thank the Lord that things are moving in a more possitive direction. Now I just need to get my gestational diabetes under control better so I won't end up having to go to my OB/GYN and have to get shots :( I REALLY, REALLY don't like needles!!! That also may change my homebirth into a hospital one. So, I will do my best at trying to control my blood sugar by eating right and see how things turn out.

The girls helped me get my home birth box together last night. They are very excited to see this new baby :)

WAITING!!!

I am finding it hard to not get concerned for this pregnancy. I guess it may be my age or just the many high risk issues I am having to deal with this one. My last pregnancy was so easy (or it seems that way now) compared to how this one is turning out. But of course things can still change. But for some reason, I am finding it hard to imagine it turning out as I had hoped in the begining.

In the begining, I had imagined another beautiful home birth, but this time a water birth. The thought of laboring in the warm water seems so relaxing and painfree (I know, wishful thinking....right???). I also imagined only my midwife, family and closest friends there to welcome my little one. But as of my 20 week ultra sound, that has all seemed to go by the way side.

Now I imagine bed rest, lots of restrictions, and possible bad outcomes. The 20 week ultra sound showed that I have complete placenta previa, which means the placenta is blocking the babies exit. This can cause serious blood loss and possible death if it gets too bad. It can also mean a hysterectomy if bleeding can't be controlled after delivery. Oh and I didn't mentiont the obvious.....a c-section, possibly an emergency c-section at that.

Plus, baby has two issues that, in and of themselves, are no big deal and should resolve on their own. But, they are "soft markers" to down syndrome. So that makes me a little nervous, but doesn't change the way I will feel toward my baby. I love him unconditionally and will take him however the Lord sees fit. Oh, did I mention that it is our first boy after having six girls :)

So with all of this being said, I am playing the waiting game to find out more information as to whether or not the placenta has moved (so I can have my home birth) or if I will end up in the hospital having a c-section. I have my next visit with my midwife in one week and will be scheduling the next U/S at that time (which should be just a couple days later).

To Be Continued.......

Mother's Day

I didn't wake up this morning to breakfast in bed, flowers, or cheerful voices wishing me a Happy Mother's Day. Instead I opened my eyes to another day of nausea and just not feeling well. But then I turned over to see my littlest lying next to me with one eye glued shut and the biggest smile on her face as she covered her face and quickly pulled her hands down and says....Peek :) Oh how sweet motherhood is! I love all of my girls very much. They are each a blessing. Hannah cleaned the entire kitchen, even scrubbing the floor. Moriah helped with the laundry. They are both growing into little ladies. Happy Mother's Day to all Mamas out there!!!

Blah, Blah, Blah!

That is how I have been feeling lately. The last two days I have really been hit with nuasea :( This is the worst part of pregnancy for me. My morning sickness lasts all day instead of just mornings. It would be bearable if it was only in the mornings. I will have my first visit to see the midwife next week. The girls enjoy seeing how big the baby is each week. We look it up on the internet and I let them watch videos of babies the same age.