WAITING!!!

I am finding it hard to not get concerned for this pregnancy. I guess it may be my age or just the many high risk issues I am having to deal with this one. My last pregnancy was so easy (or it seems that way now) compared to how this one is turning out. But of course things can still change. But for some reason, I am finding it hard to imagine it turning out as I had hoped in the begining.

In the begining, I had imagined another beautiful home birth, but this time a water birth. The thought of laboring in the warm water seems so relaxing and painfree (I know, wishful thinking....right???). I also imagined only my midwife, family and closest friends there to welcome my little one. But as of my 20 week ultra sound, that has all seemed to go by the way side.

Now I imagine bed rest, lots of restrictions, and possible bad outcomes. The 20 week ultra sound showed that I have complete placenta previa, which means the placenta is blocking the babies exit. This can cause serious blood loss and possible death if it gets too bad. It can also mean a hysterectomy if bleeding can't be controlled after delivery. Oh and I didn't mentiont the obvious.....a c-section, possibly an emergency c-section at that.

Plus, baby has two issues that, in and of themselves, are no big deal and should resolve on their own. But, they are "soft markers" to down syndrome. So that makes me a little nervous, but doesn't change the way I will feel toward my baby. I love him unconditionally and will take him however the Lord sees fit. Oh, did I mention that it is our first boy after having six girls :)

So with all of this being said, I am playing the waiting game to find out more information as to whether or not the placenta has moved (so I can have my home birth) or if I will end up in the hospital having a c-section. I have my next visit with my midwife in one week and will be scheduling the next U/S at that time (which should be just a couple days later).

To Be Continued.......

Mother's Day

I didn't wake up this morning to breakfast in bed, flowers, or cheerful voices wishing me a Happy Mother's Day. Instead I opened my eyes to another day of nausea and just not feeling well. But then I turned over to see my littlest lying next to me with one eye glued shut and the biggest smile on her face as she covered her face and quickly pulled her hands down and says....Peek :) Oh how sweet motherhood is! I love all of my girls very much. They are each a blessing. Hannah cleaned the entire kitchen, even scrubbing the floor. Moriah helped with the laundry. They are both growing into little ladies. Happy Mother's Day to all Mamas out there!!!

Blah, Blah, Blah!

That is how I have been feeling lately. The last two days I have really been hit with nuasea :( This is the worst part of pregnancy for me. My morning sickness lasts all day instead of just mornings. It would be bearable if it was only in the mornings. I will have my first visit to see the midwife next week. The girls enjoy seeing how big the baby is each week. We look it up on the internet and I let them watch videos of babies the same age.

Wasn't Expecting That!!!

Found out yesterday that we are expecting another blessing in December. I was totally shocked. I thought seriously that we were done having babies. But once again the Lord informed me that I am not the one in charge, He is!!! I am very thankful for that, because I would mess things up for sure!

It Begins

Today Mike left on his trip to see the doctor. This is a big deal since he NEVER goes to a doctor unless he is in serious pain. He left before ten o'clock this morning and it is supposed to be an eight hour trip. He should have gotten there by now, but he hasn't called and he has his phone turned off. Very irritiating!!

His appointment is at eight o'clock our time tomorrow. He is planning on sleeping in the car, which has me a bit worried since the low is supposed to be at freezing. I hope he will be safe.

We shall see how things go. I hope to have more news tomorrow.

New Road

Some friends of ours called over the weekend and felt led to tell me about their experience with a homeopathic doctor that they have been seeing for some ailments they have. Both doctors are Christians and run their practice according to Biblical teachings. Today I called to make an appointment with these doctors for Mike. We will be going to see them March 9th. It is going to be an eight hour drive. I am praying that we will be able to get Mike's issues resolved. I am going to be taking pictures and mapping out his progress on here so he will be able to see the changes that will be made naturally without "modern medicine".

One Step at a Time

Tonight my baby girl took her fist two steps unassisted. It is hard for me to believe that she is getting so big. She will be a year old in only 35 more days.

I have been thinking lately about God's messengers (the angels) and how they watch over us.

Hebrews 1:14 Are they not all ministering spirits, sent forth to minister for them who shall be heirs of salvation?

Psalm 91:11,12 For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. They shall bear thee up in [their] hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.

Matthew 18:10 Take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones; for I say unto you, That in heaven their angels do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven.

I thank God that He has angels watching over my little ones as they take all of their firsts. It is a comfort to know that even if I am not always able to watch everything they do, that God does see.

Hebrews 13:2 Be not forgetful to entertain strangers: for thereby some have entertained angels unawares.

The thought of angels being part of our daily lives is something that intrigues me. Something to think about :)