My Path to Motherhood

I have always imagined becoming a mother. When I was little I would imagine myself having three children. I was certain that my first would be a blonde headed little boy. Little did I know that the Lord would lead me down the path to motherhood in a different direction than I had invisioned.

Our first daughter (Hannah Ilisabeth) was delivered the day before our first anniversary in the hospital. I had hoped that it would be a quiet delivery with just my husband, myself, the midwife, and maybe one nurse. Little did I know that I would have at least ten people in the delivery room watching me deliver my first child. I ended up with pre-eclampsia and was very sick. For the first couple of days I couldn't even see straight. I wasn't able to get a clear look at my new baby girl. She was beautiful and perfect. What a blessing.

Our second daughter (Jennah Faith) was born by emergency c-section at 31 weeks gestation. Not the quiet homebirth I had planned and hoped for. Our precious little one went to be with Jesus seven hours after deliver. My heart was broken, but I knew she was in good hands and that I would see her again some day.

Our third daughter (Moriah Hope) was delivered in the hospital after a very scary pregnancy. I was so concerned that I would lose her also that I didn't allow myself to enjoy the pregnacy. The Lord blessed me with a wonderful VBAC with no complications. Moriah came into the world posterior (face up) with only three pushes. She is such a blessing!

Our fourth daughter (Lydiah Ruth) was also delivered in the hospital. When the doctor broke my water, it was maconium stained. I was a bit concerned. I knew if she were to inhale it after delivery that she could have some serious issues. But the Lord had his hand on her and kept her safe. She was a cuddle bug from day one. She didn't want me to put her down.

Our fifth daughter (Micah Joy) was born in the hospital with no problems at all. Very easy and uncomplicated VBAC. She was so cute and precious.

I had thought at that point that I was done having babies. But the Lord proved me wrong. I ended up having two miscarriages after Micah was born. The first miscarriage was very scary. I ended up in the hospital needing a blood transfusion. I had gotten to the point where I really did not like needles. I never wanted to go to the hospital again. Now I had three children who had gone to be with the Lord.

Then a month after the last miscarriage I was pregnant again. I called my midwife and asked what I could do to keep from miscarrying again. She gave me some suggestions and I went from there praying constantly. I didn't want to allow myself to get attached to this new life that was growing inside of me until I knew that I wouldn't lose it also.

January 6th 2010 Rebeccah Lynn came into this world. I finally got my homebirth which was absolutely amazing! I never thought I could do it. So many doctors advised against it. Even a few midwives refused to deliver me. I praise the Lord that he lead me onto the right path to the midwives who helped me through this pregnancy and delivery. It was a very healing experience.

The path to motherhood has not been easy, but it has been wonderfully rewarding. I thank the Lord every day for the precious lives that he has intrusted me with. I pray that I can be the mother that they deserve and that the Lord would have me to be. May they too one day enter the path of motherhood!

People Who Make An Impact On Our Lives

Yesterday, my baby and I went for a road trip together. As she slept in her car seat, I drove while listening to a christian program on the radio on modesty. The speaker was talking on the topic of dress. As a young woman she thought that she dressed quite modestly. One day an older gentleman came up to her and informed her that her attire wasn't as modest as she had thought it was. This man made quite an impact on this womans life and she has changed the way she looked at herself in the mirror due to his comment.

I wasn't so much touched about the topic of modesty, as I was on the influences that others can have on our lives. I got to thinking about my life. I started to wonder where I would be and what I would be like if I hadn't married my husband. I was clearly not headed on the right path before Mike and I got married. I look back at where I was then, compared to where I am now and I thank the Lord that he brought Mike and I together. I don't believe I would have gone down the same path that I am on now. It scared me to think where I would be. I would have more than likely follow the ways of the world and justified myself in it. That path would have lead me straight to the steps of Hell.

Now don't get me wrong, my life with my husband has not been a walk through the daisy fields by any means. We have had our share of trials and testings, but through it all we have held on to Jesus and have let Him guide and direct us on the path that He wants us on.

I got rather emotional as I realized the many blessings that have come into my life since my husband and I have been married. And how thankful I am that Mike chose me. I know that I don't tell or show my husband how much I love him enough. And I fall short in many ways from being the wife he deserves, but I am thankful the Lord is there to help me and to remind me of the blessing that my husband is to me!

Thank you Michael for loving me and leading me on this path of life that the Lord has set before us. I love you!

Thank you God for using a simple radio program to get me to look at my life and realize how much you have spared me from. I thank you for bringing Mike and I together as husband and wife and for the five beautiful children that you have blessed us with. And for the three blessings you hold in your hand that we will one day meet in Heaven! Thank you God for loving me, a sinner, and sending your son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for my sins.

Thank you Jesus for the pain and suffering you went through on my behalf. Thank you for setting the example for others to follow. Thank you for being the gate to the path less trodden. Few there be that find it! Please help my life to be an example to others to point the way to you.